Vickie & CodyNow, 57, and after all these years I have been living in a dark place with Bipolar, ADD, Alcoholism, addicted to cigarettes, and much more. I have finally stopped.  Yes, I have stopped smoking and drinking.  I have also taken control of my bipolar by meditation and quietness.  There’s a lot more that has helped me with this, but the one thing I do have to say is that I received a gift from God.   We all have thoughts, but we never listen to him.  I started listening and good things started happening.  I had been tested all my life and have failed many times.  Then something happen, I didn’t fail.  I have been praying and trying so hard to change my darkness to light.  I have finally done it.

It took only a moment  from what could of been the biggest loss of my life, my dad. My dad almost died, and I didn’t have time to drink or think about my problems or worry about what will happen next.  The only t hing I  had to worry about and take care of was my dad.  I had to bathe him, feed him, and change his diapers. I stayed nights with him, because he would awake and freak out.  One time he thought he was going with aliens and he was hard to convince him otherwise.  I went into another realm of darkness and I didn’t like it.

I moved in with my parents to take care of them and I haven’t smoked or drank in 3 months.  Man it’s hard to  not pick up the cigarette, but not so hard on the drinking.  My mom started drinking when this happened so I have to take care of her as well.

Today, my dad has gotten better, thankfully.  I have found a great job and I have started making jewelry again.  I’m not in that bad place anymore.  Sometimes my bipolar tries to act up so I take a step back or go for a walk, a drive or make something.

I hope your are better today. I would like to hear from you